Little Darling's First Christmas

Little Darling is 4 months old now and today is X'mas! Our Little Darling's first X'mas! Daddy and mummy brought Little Darling out to jalan jalan to have some seasonal festival feel.

We brought him to Jack's Place where we intend to have our X'mas lunch. There were party hats and party favorites on each table for guests to have some fun while taking meal. We helped Little Darling put on a party hat! So many restaurant staffs were coming to our table to look at him and play with him. All said he is so cute! hahaha..... the youngest guest for this special day!

I was so happy that I could have some peaceful time to enjoy my meal because Little Darling slept before our food was served! Since after we have him, enjoy a meal without disturbance is a kind of luxurious treat to me now! :-)

Full Month Celebrations!

After the underfed incident, we decided to go back and stayed with my mum during confinement period. Everything was moving smoothly with my mum's help!

Times flying, one month was over without I realised it! Our Little darling is full month today! We shaved our little darling bald, he looks like a shaolin monk now! hahaha...

We intended to keep this special day solely to our family. That's why no buffet, no dinner but only given full month cakes to some of our relatives and closed friends.

Till today, I am suffering of been not having enough sleep because our little darling is a night active baby. Besides every 2 hours feeding, he wakes up 2am every night to play till 5am before he fall asleep again! I think I turn into a panda liao! I really hope that he can adapt to our day and night cycle soon!

Little Owner Of A Singapore Passport

This photo was taken when our Little Darling was 5 days old. We applied a passport for Little Darling using this photo!

01 Sept 06 evening, we were heading to ICA Building to collect Little Darling’s passport after left the hospital. The little one was sleeping sounds in mummy’s arm throughout the waiting period.

When our queue number appeared, that was 3 hours plus later. May be there was very rare to have little passport owners appeared in the office. Many officers were crowded together at the counter curiously to see our little baby! Everybody was chatting, gossiping and discussing about him but the little passport owner continue his sweet dream ignoring the crowd!

Home Sweet Home! We reached home around 11pm. Little Darling slept sounds in his babycott!

Little Darling Admitted Hospital

We sent our Little Darling to see PD on 31 Aug 06 afternoon because he has no poo for 3 days and looks like he has jaundice. Little Darling was admitted to the hospital for photolight theraphy at 6pm due to jaundice was exceed acceptable level. According to our PD, the reason baby has jaundice and did not poo was due to underfed! I did not realise that I have not been feeding him sufficient in the past few days!

The little body was stripped naked, blind-folded and flip to lie on stomach during the photolight theraphy. Our Darling was struggling, kicking and crying loud! I heartache and I cried. Daddy was cried also when he saw the Little one crying in the nursery while the big one crying outside the nursery.

Hb dragged me home for dinner at 9pm. I insisted of went back to the hospital again at 11:00pm to deliver EBM for our Little Darling. After so many hours putting in the light theraphy box, he still cried loud and struggling! I really heartpain and again I could not control my tears from rolling out seeing our little one was suffering.

Our Darling was exhausted and slept sound in my arm during feeding time, his little knee caps were red, his lips were cracking! I blamed myself for not taking good care of him! I couldn't bear to leave him in the nursery alone, I was very relunctant to leave him there alone and ourself go home! But the hospital did not allow us stayed overnight unless we admitted to a room. My heart was bleeding! My sour was remained with our little one in the nursery although physically I was home!

I had a sleepless night! We rushed back to hospital the next day morning 7:00am. We were waiting outside the nursery and I insisted of feeding him myself every 3 hours. He looks so tired! My heart so aching! How wish if I can do the theraphy on his behalf!

Thank goodness! Blood test at 4:00pm shown that our little darling's jaundice was dropped to 180. Our PD discharged him at 5pm. I was overjoy and quickly wiped and changed cloth for our little darling, I wanted him to leave this place as fast as possible! I hugged my little darling as hard as I could! I promised I will paid extra care in future!

Arrival Of Our Bundle Of Joy

I could not sleep on the night before I gave birth. I have mixture of feeling, happy that we can see our little prince after 9months wait but at the same time I was so worried about baby's health, labour smoothness, I have no experience in taking care of baby, can I cope etc?

23 Aug 2006, 8:00am, I reported myself to the hospital to prepare for ceasarian at 11:00am.

At 11:15am, I was on the operation theater, epidural was admitted by my anesthetist. I chose epidural so that hb can go into labour room to witness the arrival of our little prince. I was so worried and panic because my legs can still feel after the epidural was admitted! I was screaming to my anesthetist! :) I was too nervous till I forgotten that pain nerve and feeling nerve are different! hahahaha.......

Finally saw my hb's face appeared in the room at 11.30am, my gynae told us that we can hug our prince soon! I was so excited! Wail! Wail! Wail..... little darling's cries! Wow! he cries so loud! My gynae lifting up our little prince above the curtain to let me take a look at him before send him for cleaning! I was so touch and tears had flooded my eyes.

Do you believe or not! During this messy period, I can still remind my gynae to collect cord blood! :P :P :P I super worried that this important task was left out!

So happy and relief when seeing our little darling lying quietly on my chest. He stopped cried, his little face was so chubby, so tender! He is 100% looks like daddy!

Daddy followed the nurse sending baby to nursery while I stayed on the operation theater for stitching. I was advised to rest in our room after came out from the observation room at 1:00pm+. Nurse brought our little darling to let him latch at 4pm after I fully recovered from numb.

I was so lucky that my wound did not give me much problem. I went down from bed to go to washroom with help (because my injured pelvis still not recovered) the next day evening. We were delighted that we were allowed to go home together with our little darling on Saturday morning.

Twisted My Pelvis Joint

I had very bad water retention and my stomach was super huge! Many people thought I was carrying twins or triplets! :)

20 July 06 2:00am, I was thinking of going to washroom but my pelvis was too painful for me to move even with hb's assitance! I could not get up, unable to move to lie down nor to sit properly. My hb dialed an ambulance to send me to hospital and I was hospitalised for 3 days. I twisted my pelvis joint.

My gynae told us that it will takes at least half year to recover. I could not stand, sit and walk properly. I must on wheelchair till after I gave birth. I must tried to move and exercise my legs to ensure blood circulation at my lower part and legs. Just a simple action can kill me and caused my tears dropped because it is too painful. I must relied on pain killer which I was relunctant to take initially. Besides this, I must take aspirin to prevent arterial clotting and pills to prevent pre-term contractions.

On 8 Aug, we went for a routine checkup at my gynae clinic. With my injured pelvis, I could not have naturally delivery. We scheduled to have ceasarian to bring out our little precious one when he turns 37weeks old! I feel so sad and sorry to my little one that I could not keep him longer in my womb till he is full term. On the other hand, I was happy that we could see him and hug him earlier! What a contradiction!

My gynae ordered me started to jab at my stomach instead continue with aspirin and these must be done 2 weeks before my delivery.

Those jabs were nightmare to me, I couldn't bear to poke on my stomach! I felt so painful when the nurse poked on me and I was advised to do it myself for the next 14 days! It was too troublesome to have my jab at GP as I am on wheelchair and hb has to work. So I decided that I do it myself. When I first tried to jab on myself on 9 Aug, I pinched as hard as possible on the area I intended to poke needle, deep breath and gather full courage, the needle poked on my fresh! Goodness me! It was so painful and my tears dropped! Due to my lousy skill, it was bleeding. The fresh red blood wetted two big pieces of cotton wool and I was so panic to see so! Luckily it was stopped after I pressed on the tiny hole using gauze.

I was so worried when I have to jab on the following day. I sitting tight on the wheelchair, took deep breath and action to poke..... failed to poke the needle in! I have been repeated the deep breath and action to poke for more then half an hour but the needle just simply do not go into my layer of fats! I gave the nurse a ring, she advised me to rub the area I intend to poke till it numb, relax and poke. I followed and feel slightly better but again bleeding and I cried! This poking needle job really can kill me! I can't imagine that I have to do it for another 13 days! :-(

The Greatest Gift For The Year 2006

We had been trying to have a little one for almost a year. It was a long and taxing journey to both my hb and me.

I went for a hormone profile checkup during my Dec'05 mensus period and came back with good news, my FSH level was pretty low (about 6) and I really hoped that we could strike this round.

We have planned a trip to Cameron Highlands for a short break during Christmas time, a long journey was to be avoided after my ovulation period. I felt tension and tightness at my lower abdomen and my body temperature remained on the high side these few days. I had a gut feeling that I might be pregnant, hence I paid extra care during the trip.

Early in the morning on 01 Jan 06, our greatest joy came about in the form of double-deep pink lines on the pregnancy test kit! We had finally made it! We were overjoy and could hardly wait till 3 Jan 06 to see our gynae for confirmation; the clinic was closed for new year!

On 03 Jan morning, we did a blood test as ordered by our gynae. I was in no mood to work as I was so anxious to know the blood test result. I waited till lunch time to call the nurse. My pregnancy was confirmed. Late afternoon I rushed to the clinic for hormone support jab and also took home some medicine for pregnancy support.

As a first time and anxious mummy, I went to knock my gynae's clinic door voluntarly to request for blood test on alternate days to make sure that my hormone level doubled up as expected!

The 6th week for ultra-sound scan seemed so long to wait! We saw the little dot and heartbeats on this first scan!!! Our precious little one is there!!! No words could describe our joys, we were so touched!!!

I was delighted that I had not much morning sickness except I could not stand steam fish and garlic smell. I did not eat much but I did not vomit except I felt extremely sleepy ever day, I can even felt to close-up my eyes when I was driving to and fro office.

Three months was so long to us! We can't wait to get it over so that we can shared our joy with our relatives and friends especially I have another three friends who strike about the same time as us!